I forget.

Forget about things I wanted to have so quickly. Only the deepest dreams stay with me forever, but waiting for them to become truth is so painful.

Why I can not be just full of joy and happiness? How it is to be funny and like a ray of sun? I do not know. I was created dark and twisted, thinking toooo much, always scared… being afraid of people. Well this is me – everything else is just a mask I put on me from time to time to make other people happy.

Creating is also me… also a matter of waiting. Waiting for inspiration, choosing the path. Even when I know what I want to create my body may not be ready for doing it, but when body and mind are ready… sometimes I can not stop.

So I made some pendants!

Tree of Souls

Mermaid

FisziFiszi

The Whale

Lady Swastika

My amazing Viper Wand – naturally formed driftwood and turquoise, amethyst…

And more pendants…

And The Swan… with tiger’s eyes

Amazing Sea Horse

Hi Eve – is my funny way of talking about the serpent from Eden…

It is always better to get busy when I have too much to think about… too much thinking is not good for me!

Triple - with selenite

The Raven who has stolen the Sun

Lucky – with pyrite

and very small Pinki

Finally amazing and cute HOME – it was a lot of work, pieces of stones were so tiny… but I made it!!!

My precious!!!

In fact all I have done… well I just found this piece and added one eye… The Grey Wolf was born somewhere between human and the sea, between time and waves… amazing and so beautiful.

And my Island… well, She is also inpatient one from time to time, even so wise, is still a Lady.

I go outside and breath the magic! OK in fact I try to breath. And it is not about me, it is all about nature and environment. Well, we try to do our best to keep the Island green, amazing and clean so… we use nature to fertilize the fields and it makes often the air less nice smelly… well in fact it smells like poo.

Not a nice poo indeed!

I prefer seaweeds smell, and the Sea, with this fresh, salty, fishy added details. But, there is no choice for my nose… or there is? I have problems with sinuses, so today I smell nothing – and I think it is good, even very good – fresh poo on a field, the bread will be nice! Today I can only hear and see, and touch.

It is so strange when You turn of one of senses. Usually we use them all, we do not even bother, we have them, here they are… We look, touch, taste… awwww!!! I taste even stones! Yeah, crazy me. Even with my problems with eyes or nose I still can feel. But should I say, that only using all senses, makes me full of amazing feelings and let me paint from my soul?

NO!

Sometimes it is good to close the eyes, or do not touch, or just taste… try it! It can make You feel the world around You different!!! Just taste, or just touch something You think You know, what is so familiar. You can be very surprised! Be brave and try!

Dear KITTYPINKSTARS!!! You are the best and the RainbowPuff which I won is my new best buddy to walk around. He is very creative when it is about having photos. Of him of course!!!

Thank You for putting rainbows into my life!

Sometimes I could swear he is singing: I am sexy and I know it!!!

Of course like always my Postman – amazing one – was smiling so wide that I could be his dentist.

He always reacts so on pink packages and envelopes.

The one who always walks alone, but in fact always is surrounded by spirits, crows, strange whispers and ancient stories. I always dance alone, between stones and waves, always talk to them, hug trees and listen…

Why I am so not social?

Do not know, always have been so. People always hurt me, they are just painful! This is why I prefer them in a dead stage. Yeah, spirits and ghosts are in fact a bit more friendly for me! And all my magic, powers, roots comes from my Island. She is gentle for me. In fact I do not know how She can stand me, but She is my Sister, my Mother and Grandmother, my Religion and my World. She is my Love and Passion, the one who feeds me and also… hurts.

She is my everything.

She helps me to create. Wakes me up, but also cuddle and hug me, when I am really scared. She is a cradle of my dreams. In fact I do not need more. All I need is She. How crazy is that? If someone told me I won a trip around the World… I would say: NO THANK YOU!?

How crazy is not to need anything more? How crazy is not to be able to breath, when I can not see the sea?

Yes… in fact all I need is a small miracle. Little home, white fence, herbs in a garden, sea close enough to get there just wearing my panties! Feeling safe, and free. Listening to the crows and seagulls.

Life is much simpler than we think. But money make it easier – LOL And I feel so much better having fresh canvas!

Finally got 5 little canvas which will be all about the Sea, dolphins and whales. And now I know why I have so much water in my usually fire connected soul… it is all about Beltane! And the time of my personal rebirth.

I am me, and being me is good! And my Island gave me such an amazing fire for Beltane Eve…

Thank You that You love me!!! And that all of the places You wanted my crazy me – just a Little Crow Witch who walks alone…

And now I feel my magic is blooming.

My fingers want to paint!!!

It is like itching. Something pushes me, dance with my feelings and thoughts, messes with my dreams. Creating is singing somewhere deep, inside of me. It is a great, amazing feeling… but NOT when I am out of canvas.

When I am out of canvas it is a bit more like painful.

So I wait, and swim in my own sea of visions, ideas and creations. They will be born when the time is wright. Beltaine is coming. So it is so easy to be understood. Time of creating has started, but now it is in a full bloom! Maybe the sea will be gentle and with 1 may I will be able to swim… yeah, I know I should wait until Sct. Hans Day, but… sometimes intuition tells me, I can, so I do!

I am still in a strange whale/dolphins mood. But today, I run away. Run away to see… well to the sea to see signs again. And I saw 2 of them: a dragon on the sky and a dead crow. It made me sad, but also let me feel so strong and natural.

Death, passing away… it is normal, natural, pure line of living, but still, I am just a small witch, so I feel sad.

The bird was so beautiful. Human inside of me wanted to hug him, but a witch crow decided, that this is a good place to come back into ground. Beauty and sadness in one place…

I run away to see the Sea, awesome blue Sky and green pieces called fresh hope! But also to let my Island meet my newest gift from Kathy and Spirit of Old!!! Thank You both of You, first for Friendship, second for true magic!

YAY! I also should inform, that Puff Mail attacked Bornholm again!!! Yeah Kittypinkstars is here!!! And this time She gave me Snowballs!!! Because I love snow so much, that keep a small snowman in my fridge!

They are so cute!!! Do not worry little one, winter is coming!!!

I will make my cards beautiful with this stickers!

And of course everything thanks to K.!!!

Well… my Island is ready for Beltaine! For fun and fire, dancing and some hugs!

This is why I paint!!!

To give You possibility to free Your mind, soul… To make You laugh or think or just have awesome dreams!

But now no painting for me – I am out of canvas… what is really painful, when I feel somewhere inside something pushing me to tell stories about my Island with my little brush! So PLEASE REMEMBER I HAVE 45% OFF ON MY ETSY SHOP – use code APRIL and have me on Your walls!

At least I had cute mail in my post box!!! Awesome, making me smile, cute envelope which my Postman always hold so careful in his hands and smiles too! Kittypinkstars – Sticker Sunday is amazing.

Just love Her, Thank You!!!

And yesterday I got my piece of art from New Zealand! How awesome is that? From Etsy KIWILAND.

With a cute tiny bag! YAY!

And my Island still can not decided should it be warm already or not. So we have warm but with cold winds… Well, still it is so beautiful with this awesome blue sky, birds singing around, my crows nesting and seagulls. I love Bornholm. Really and to deepest emotions.

JUST WANT TO LIVE.

Have a lot of such thoughts recently. Maybe this is connected with something in the air? Something what is changing me – fire – more connected with water, whale and dolphin medicine. Or I just think to much? Do not know, all I know “Moon Whale love story” is finished!

“Moon Whale love story” – once upon a time a Moon Whale fell in love with Aurora Borealis. He saw Her, those vibrant colors, so different, so strange, and started to sing. Was singing for so long time, every night when She was dancing above him. He was sure She can hear Him. Because She was dancing. But in fact all She was doing was… dancing and being to selfish to look down.
What for – She had all sky only for Her…
It was my dream/vision, everything is connected with strange shifting which I can feel. Something what pushes me – fire – into water medicine.

His silver tale want to touch Her… but in fact He can not, all He can is to swim, sing and be touched by Her…

My Island is singing, but in fact I do not know who is She in love with! But I know the Spring is here, and everything is waking up! Flowers look so amazing in this fresh, sunny light! And even I finally cleared up our little garden!

The most amazing wood ever.

As I adore trees, fresh wood, and am addicted to resins, love pine and fresh leaves… so still find the most amazing driftwood. Pieces of wood, branches, who connected with the Sea, took a long journey in the magical underwater world, or just the surface of it… have been where I will never be – because I throw up on a boat – so strong, but also so fragile in shapes. Love it.

When I am out of canvas, I go to the beach and look for them. For most amazing shapes. For those who sing for me. Tell me an amazing story and let change into a pendant or a lovely sculpture. And they love to talk.

Driftwood is full of salty Sea water, but also full of the Sun which touched him, dried and hugged! Is a piece of the Air, winds who helped him swim, but also touch by the Earth, with tiny pieces of sand. It is like the Tree decided to give a piece of him to Mighty Four Powers… and then let me be found.

I brought a few amazing pieces, so there will be some wands and pendants. Wild and full of magic from Bornholm… I will not change them, just add a piece to hang them, add some stones and maybe feathers, just add this what in fact they already told me about. To make a story full and radiant!

But this one piece I will show You – it looks in fact like a head of the bone!

It is so amazing, so soft, and has lovely brown color. Opens like a flower, perfect place for a clear quartz!

I also was in my second soul place – Louisenlund – “bautasten” with 50 stones, very magical, powerful, full of ancient spirits. It was amazing! In fact a day before everything was covered with snow… so flowers were a bit damaged, but still looked lovely!

One inspiration was pushing another…

It was an amazing day – and You know what? We HAD CANDIES too… the best one from Gudhjem – but I love those from Svaneke too!!!

Trees started to dance, so suddenly, slowly, but now… I could swear they will take roots out and run. Spirits are swimming in the air, and blowing giants are hugging the birds. Tiny feathers finally can come back up and up… and there is a white cat who wants to catch it, but no way!

The feather is coming back to the air.

So why I feel so waterly? It is strange. For me as a fire, I feel so close to the water now. Can smell the sea in the air. Salty pieces in my nose, my skin can breath the sea. My hair decided to move with the winds. Why not!

The Island is dancing.

And I got my new amazing pendant from Kasia (Wands of Transformation). And a tiny witch for my bday

Thank You so much! I love it!

And well, crow is just awesome!

The wand is: “Song of a whale” - “Mini wand pendant with clear quartz, whale and jay medicine. It’s all about expressing the emotions Water and air element. For any whale or birds lovers out there. Comes on a leather string and is on driftwood. The backside of the wood reminds me of the ghost figure from Ghost busters “. And I can feel it!!!

Yeah, the world is changing.

Can feel it, can dance with it, and even if I am a bot scared, I also know there is something good for me, so impatient to be touched by me… Wait for me my miracle. I am coming and ready for Ya!

YAY!

I won stickers from Kittypinkstars!!! And they came, and made my postman smile, and brought me rainbows and amazing bday card!!!

Thank You so much!!!

Kitty You do make everybody smile, even if they are in a grumpy mood.

And the stickers!!!

And there is a rainbow which even me made smile!!!

Yeah, it was a happy post day!!!

How amazing it is? And if You stick it even on a poo, the poo will look funny and happy!!! Just like the best thing on the World!

And today KATHY made me smile too!!! Thank You so much! There will be pendants and wands and all magical happy pieces!!!

In fact I had a Birthmonth not just one day I am so grateful, so Thank You Everybody!!!

I know it is good, and creates new possibilities, but as an always depressed and scared human being witch… I am just more scared. And I never know if the changes will be good or just nice, or just good but for somebody else?

Dreams are also crazy lately. Maybe this is because of the Moon, Venus and Jupiter, or maybe it is just crazy me? Do not know… but this strange feeling made me to create 2 paintings and a wand.

Check my Etsy Shop

It is just so amazing how in one time I can be blue, and then, suddenly change into this pink-yellow mood. But I am a woman.

So we could just call it a normality.

And a wand, I called her “A Flute”. It has an amazing fish medicine beautiful crystal and a seagull feather. If You blow into this tiny holes, it singes.

It is a raw, wild tool, to feel good with changes. With water and the air who seem to stand over the fire. Or at least I feel that. I am a fire, and now I am wind and water. I dream about them, I feel them, just could jump into the sea… Yeah! I know it is cold, but I feel that I need to touch this connection.

That something is so near.

We should be prepared. Or just crazy enough to dance into the new!!! I think it is an amazing idea!

Why not?

In fact it is on 25th March, but as an urban/hospital legend says, I was coming out for 3 days. Cool me. I think I was not ready to come out? Or something else, was thinking too much as usually?

Do not know.

All I know now I am in a place I was dreaming about even when I was swimming inside of the belly.

But what kind of dreams do I have now? I want people I know to have their dreams come true, and want my Island to be healthy… but for me? All I want is a home. And in fact, a bit of strange moving freedom to be back.

It is a bit complicated.

I was a cute kid And when I look at me now… this is strange but my face did not changed so much, and eyes, they are still so impossible like when I was a kid. I am not growing up, but yeah I am older! Wiser? Nei! Do not think so… just crazy, more crazy is good! Even awesome!

And You know what, I have fresh canvas today!!!

The smell of fresh, natural cotton canvas… pine wood on the back, this innocent white color… Love it. Just love it, like a smell of fresh bread and pine wood, jasmine, lilacs, violets, warm stones, sea, island, new teddy bears and books! and glue! Yeah love it. I know, this is not normal.

I got first birthday gifts!

Sweets, tea, and amazing owl from my Husband… and today, very surprising, amazing one, awesome and magical piece from Kaś! Thank You Nurrgula Art Jewellery!!!

She is really awesome, check Her Etsy!!! Her work is not just cute or beautiful, it is pure and magical!

… just love it!

And yesterday my Crows gave me this… and now I know my dreams will come true! All of them!!!

And because of my Birtday… I HAVE A SALE!!! So… You can get even 50% – or maybe more – of the present price. If You love, like, adore one (or 2 or 5 or all) of my paintings, or just wanna give it to a Mother-In-Law… write to me

I am very easy to be persuade